Call me slow, but this verse seems to have just sunk into me :P

that God made this world and us to partake in His glory, in fellowship with Him, but we chose not to... (our sin). God is Love, but He also is Just and Righteous.
He abhors our sin but He has promised Noah not to wipe the world clean again. The only way He can keep balance between love and righteousness, is for Jesus His Son to die on our behalf, for Jesus' blood to wash away our sins. Jesus has conquered the cross and death (the empty cross) so that we may have faith, hope and joy and abundant life even beyond our time here. God is both a loving and just God.

But who is Jesus? I remember CS Lewis wrote about the difference between begotten and created... to beget is of the same 'equal' kind, like a mother begetting her child, while to create is like human creating a sailboat model. [Mere Christianity puts it better] Jesus is God's only begotten son. (John 3:16) sacrificed on the cross. God is 三体为一的神 (trinity) Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Hope i finally got it right. but hmm i think my understanding will not ever be complete... yet.


God assures us that faith is still a process, and even for reluctant converts like C.S. Lewis, God is patient for us to continue to seek and to grow. and it's okay to struggle in that growth













pictures 1. early spring in beida 2. sunshine in nei meng